For as long as I can remember I’ve always been a woman with a whole lot of ambition. I’ve always had larger than life dreams. I have always been a planner. My biggest fault… the follow through. If you know me well you know how painfully true this is in every area of my life. College majors, relationships, half marathons, etc.
Recently the Lord has been nudging at my heart that if I fully commit to him he will push me to have greater commitment in every other area of my life. There is no fruit if we are only half invested in our relationship with Jesus Christ He deserves all of us. There is no success if we do the training for a half marathon but never actually run the race. It is a lot harder to finish school if it takes you two years to commit to a major for fear that it isn’t exactly what you are supposed to do forever. You cannot maintain a healthy relationship with someone if there is no commitment to caring for that person through both the good and the bad times. Commitment is scary but so necessary.
Proverbs 16: 1-3 says, “To humans belong the plans of the heart, but from the Lord comes the proper answer of the tongue. All a person’s ways seem pure to them, but motives are weighed by the Lord. Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and he will establish your plans.” When we try to be the ruler over our own lives without committing our plans, ambitions, and biggest dreams over to the Lord we fail.
We can’t let fear of commitment control our lives. I have lived in the midst of this fear for the past 21 years. I know how easy it is to breeze through life not committing to anything just along for a good time with no potential for hurt or risk. I have found that my lack of commitment has hurt people I care about, has caused confusion and chaos in my personal life, and has even occasionally interfered with my relationship with Jesus. When we live safe in our own little bubble we miss out on so much greater. The plans the Lord has in store for us outside of our fears and comfort zones are worth it, we just need to put a greater level of trust in him.
As I head into my final semester of my undergraduate college career, my big plans, big dreams, and huge levels of ambition are in full swing. College is four years of our lives and as much as we cry out to God for his plan to work out our way in the end, our job is not to be the planner but the doer. Putting my trust into fully committing to and surrendering over to the Lord’s plan has given me a peace unlike anything I have experienced before. Galatians 6:9 says, “Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.”
Commitment is scary and I don’t claim to be too great at it but as I continue to pursue the kingdom, I’m constantly learning and growing. When we commit to pursuing the Lord he works all things out for our good. I am a woman with ambition, dreams, and big plans but with a heavenly perspective I can trust in surrendering and committing those plans to the Lord which ultimately brings a peace unlike any other.